Greetings to my “new attitude” readers! Last year, around this time, I started a blog.. THIS blog. It had been a long time coming because I've been wanting to start writing for a long time. I actually have had bits and pieces of content to disseminate since 2018. I even attempted to start a YouTube channel in 2020 that I realized that I couldn’t keep up because it takes hours and hours to edit videos. I know that I learn best visually and kinesthetically, and I’m the best at notating my ideas, so that’s where the blog idea came to mind. My friend Dr. Cherlisa Jackson has consistently encouraged me to just…start. She even set the example earlier this year by starting Therapy Thursdays on her IG (@synclairejames). And it was ACTUALLY a psychic medium that also told me I needed to start writing more…
So, what's been stopping me? Mostly life, but also myself. I've made a TON of excuses as to why I couldn't...just...START. Time, knowledge, fear of failure, perfectionism, self-doubt, and a myriad of other things have stopped me from basking in the glow of myself and meeting my truest potential. ADD LIMITING BELIEFS. And the story has not changed, but enter “DISSERTATION” in the mix and my drive to get this doctorate done, on top of all the other things my multi-passionate self has going on and… BOOM! Literally no time made for writing on a consistent basis. Albeit, the weight of my potential is HEAVY. I have to press through.
Below are my original words to my first blog about starting, and the blue is reflective of what's happening in the present. It's like a written time capsule.
What I manifested for myself is already coming to light. — It's still my season!
*I've was comfortable in a 14-year teaching career, but I've always felt there was more that could be done. So, at the beginning of the 2021-2022 school year, I told myself way before Beyoncé told us to quit our 9-5 that I was not going to go back to teaching after the school year was over. I wasn’t sure at first, but the more I spoke it, the more sure I became, the more things in my life started lining up for me to make it happen. Now, I know it was the perfect time for me to exit my teaching career, and I have zero regrets. I know I’ll miss the students, but I plan to volunteer at the school. —And I DID miss the students, which led me to substitute teach, and I’ve loved 99.2% of the moments while subbing. I haven’t gone back to full-time teaching, and it’s been financially impactful, but not detrimental. The biggest tradeoff is the freedom from stress and strict schedule I have felt! It’s been wonderful!
*I wanted my son to have Speech and Occupational Therapy, and because I’m no longer on the school schedule, I’m able to take him before he has to go to the ABA center for school.
—He’s in Kindergarten in public school now, so he’s getting Speech and Occupational Therapy through the school district. I’m also free to be present at the school when I need to and present at home for him when he gets off. It’s literally been the best decision I’ve made for him. He’s overall shining!
*I wanted to pour into my notary business, Mallory Mo-tary (mallorymotary.com), that I started July 2020. I tested for and received my remote online notary commission, and now, I am in the next training class for Notary Cam. I’ll be working as an 1099 Independent Contractor for the company doing Remote Online Notarizations. I get to choose my own hours…I’m my own BOSS!— I didn’t do as well with this, so in 2024, I’ll do better. Through Notary Cam, I’ve been able to meet some cool people and hear a snapshot of their life stories domestically and internationally! It’s been incredible. Mallory Mo-tary is now fully remote, so contact me if you need a notarization anywhere in the United States!
*I wanted to assist Raymond, my life partner, with our real estate endeavors, helping him by organizing the business and assisting him in any way he needs. I’ve been doing just that.
—I’m proud of us. I did assist him with our real estate endeavors, helped to organize the business better, and assist him. I’ve also been focusing on myself, so in that, we’ve had some tough yet imperative conversations. Like really mature and vulnerable conversations. We’ve come to some conclusions that I’ll discuss in our grown people conversations later.
*Lastly, I wanted to give the necessary time I need to give to complete my doctorate. Dr. Mal is on the way! I just need to be intentional about scheduling it into my already crazy schedule. Now at least, I have the flexibility to schedule anything I want!
—AND DR. MAL IS CLOSER THAN SHE’S EVER BEEN! I’m conducting my research right now, so if you know anyone that meets my research qualifications, please let me know!
IF YOU’RE READING THIS, JUST START ALREADY—or START AGAIN ALREADY!
Alexa, play “Try Again” by Aaliyah. If at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again!
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